Anyways, this is one of if not the last piece (maybey forever! :( ) I made up for them.

First time I have ever used Adobe Premiere, but everyone seems to like it and I think it came out pretty decent for something that wasnt even planned. I recored all the video footage at the last minute after spending about 3 or so days in the studio with the guys taking photos. After realising I literally had to many photos I started shooting video not knowing what I was even going to use it for, but considering it was going to be the last time these guys were all together AND also in the studio, I figured it was the least I could do as far as capturing the memories for them.

So some people have already seen it but here is the video! :)

Oh also one last thing, my little rant about the Soundwave Festival in my last blog post, Im sorry about the amount of typos that were in there, but I was blogging it from my iPhone while we were waiting in the carpark to be let out.

Thanks again guys!

Until next time

Ryan

So soundwave Sydney Australia 2010 was an incredible fail, the lineup was pretty damn amazing, paramore, afi, faith no more, James addiction, Jimmy eat world, Alexis on fire, HIM, all round a pretty spiffy lineup. Here's what was a joke, no shade, all the toilets were either in the over 18's section or at the front of the venue which If you walked there from the back of the venue would take you a good 20 mins if not more allowing for crowds, they ran out of food and water, we were told we couldn't sit "there" and to move down, after me askig down to where, they said down there where we then sat only to be told to move later another 5 times.
Staff didn't have radio contact with each other, my girlfriend was having an asthma attack and my brother passing out from heat stroke, I found staff only to find that they had no way to call medics to our location..... 10 minutes of me running through crowds to find the medic tent only resulted in me being told that it's not their area and to go to the other medic tent which was a good 20 minute walk, by then my girlfriend could have passed out alog with my brother.
We didn't even wait until the very last band and decided to leave early to beat the rush, we have now been sitting in the car park for over an hour and honestly have not moved an inch and if I was to wait until we were out to post this blog then it looks like about another 3 hours according to the police here.

Soundwave, I know that you can't help alot of the things that happen at these events, and the organisation of the events seemed fine, it's was just the lack of simple common fucking sense.

SORT IT OUT

It's gonna have to be one he'll of a lineup next year for me to pay $160 for a sun tan, heat stroke headache, hours long wait to leave, and to put up with bands being behind about an hour if not more, a groups of blind folded todlers pissing on a piece of paper would create a better looking project management plan that this trash.
Last year was fine, why did you not only change the layout of this years but also introduce more bars which ended in bottlenecking crowds just like last year and also cutting off valuable land space, toilets and water at those bars since all the other ones ran out.... AGAIN!

On another note, the one thing that blew my mind was the music and lifestyle appreciation I saw here, from the mixed age groups and no bullshit happening between event goers, but one thing that stood out was me watching a couple, one wearing an Anthrax tshirt and the other wearing a trivium tshirt, both dancing to paramore. Also my brother who is into heavy metal very heavily (excuse the punn) enjoying acts like Placebo, Jimmy eat world and Paramore.

Having said that that was the thing I enjoyed from this years soundwave, I can find the exact same thing from hanging out on a music appreciation forum on the net, or speaking to my muso friends, so I'm not going to thank soundwave for that either.

I'm trying so hard to keep this blog to a photography / personal photography journey so here it is, a 9 photo panorama shot, stitched and edited 100% on my iPhone, I think that this is amazing that I can do things with a phone that we were all struggling to do with actual cameras only a couple of years ago.
I've been planning on posting a blog all about iPhone-ography and which apps I use and also recomend but there are already plenty of sites out there and I just can't find the time at the moment.

Ryan

Constantly thinking about shutter speeds, Fstops, ISO, ambient vs studio lighting, locations, themes, pricing, branding, equipment, if Im not talking about it, Im thinking about it.

If you see me sitting still doing nothing, or I go quiet all of a sudden, Im probably either sleeping with my eyes open or thinking about anything to do with photography and what my next step has to be.

We all get in our little down moods, its human nature, but when all the answers to all the questions your asking point to more money, more time, more this, more that, it gets exhausting.

With so much to know, and no knowledge where to start, and, or, no money to pay for that knowledge, it has turned me to the internet, a large, dark, scary place full of NeWbZ and rOfLkOpTeRs along with all the other garbage found here.

But there is light at the end of the tunnel (or behind my LCD's in my computer screen in this case) and that light is so inspiring that I cant stop looking.

This has fueled my love and passion of people and photographing them. Where Im going to take this? Only time will tell, and that has alot to do as to how hard I push it I know.

But with so many obsticles in my way, even as small as what lens do I need for the job?Am I using the right lights? Is there such a thing as right or wrong?

So many other questions, so many dark places to lurk and try and help myself at this amazingly huge all you can eat buffet known as the Internet.

Im tired, tired of constantly thinking and not knowing which direction to go, who to talk to and who to ask for help.

Wondering if my mentors and inspirations have that look or style to their art because they were faced with the same limitations of gear, lack of creativity, or lack of open minded people to take photos of.

Did the worlds top landscape photographers become landscape photographers because they have incredibly bad social skills? Or was it because they just didnt know how to use lighting set ups?

Do the portrait artists I adore and follow have that certain look and feel that makes their work stand out from all the others because they dont know how to white balance? or color correct? or anything else that you can think of?

Should I throw in the towel and go and do a TAFE course in I.T and sit behind a desk the rest of my life telling people to turn the computer off and try again, and just take photos of my kids and have all my friends think of me the way they think of me now and that is, Ryan, that guy with the nice camera.

Should I be offended when someone I know approaches me and says "Hey man, you got a nice looking camera, could you shoot my wedding?" assuming that because I have spent a certain amount of money on a camera, or that it "looks pro" that the photos that are produced by this portable computer with a mini telescope attached to it are going to look good? And that it has nothing to do with knowing what adjustments to make or what buttons to push and when to push them?

If only we could all pay the un relentless pile of bills that we all gather by "looking pro" or looking impressive.

Ever feel youve reached the end before you ever even began the race?

The video I've included from one of my favourite photographers Zack Arias, sums me up, not my lifestyle that Zack has, but more along the lines of the questions, the feelings and the mood that wanting something and being creative and not knowing where to go or who to turn to can create, or in his case, reaching what many people only dream of and work so hard to achieve only to fail, and yet still find yourself asking if your worthy? Is it all real? What the heck do I do next?

People like Zack Arias, Chase Jarvis, Lithium Picnic, all these people that have inspired thousands, if not more, Im sure all questioning themselves, abilities, or choices.

After watching Zack post this video, but continue to stay in the game is incredibly empowering.

Chase is always so upbeat, positive, creative, and fun, which is something Im still trying to dig down and find within.

Watching Lithium Picnic on twitter, doubt if hes "Still got it" or not, and thinking about maybey just taking one long ass break is a very scary thought.

I know that these photographer / internet personalities know they have lots of people interested / following their every online move, but I wonder if they actually know what sort of an impact they have on the people they have opened up their lives to?

From people like me, who live in a small western suburbs town, lacking so many things that I could really do with right about now, surrounded by people mowing their lawns on sunday mornings, coming home, cooking dinner, watching TV and going to sleep, because, well, thats just what you do right?

Gotta keep pushing, until I hit the first goal, to be paid to take photos, the photos I want to take. But then what? push to get more clients? push for more gear? push to move to a different country that I think just MIGHT help me in so many ways?

Who knows?

But for now, an incredible video from Zack Arias, that Im sure all people, both creative and "regular" alike all feel at some stage.

Ryan.

Im also into design, graphic design, art, bla bla bla all that sorta stuff, anyways, I thought that maybey some of you might also appreciate this!

Gorgeous right?!

Ive added myself to the mailing list to be informed as to when they are available to purchase!

The original website from which these images are from is here and I highly urge you to get some aswell and geek out over one of if not the most safest, beautiful, elegant fonts out there!

Ryan

Corey and Karla are a couple I can see staying very close friends for well......forever, along with Kat and Sammo, Kiera and Pete these are all couples that like Loz and myself are open minded, easy going and just love the simpler tasks in life such as hanging out over a good movie, good alcohol or good food.

To all the other people who came, please dont take offense, but they are just people that came to mind.

Ian and James my fellow geek brothers, much love there and much arguement between varying opinions but at the end of the day we know we are all on the same page with our tech speak and no one is ever wrong or right in an industry like that

Chantel, a new friend, an amazingly cool chick and just an all round sexy gorgeous person, and thats just after 30 mins of talkin to ya! I can see us working together alot in the future and having alot of fun along the way

Jordan and Daniel are always welcome and always bring some character to wherever they go and whatever they are doing, thanks for the company and handshakes boys

Kiel, you keep suprising me whenever I get to see you for more than a set list or a 5 minute hello before you have to leave to go home or take the stage like the true, under-rated rock star you are. With Aventine Hill "gone" we have to work super duper hard to even just meet up at the movies, coffee, dinner, small gatherings, whatever.

Liam and Lisa, hadnt seen you guys for so long, seems like a year Id say, as soon as I saw you guys at the party there was no hesitation, there was no uncomfortness, there was just a kiss, hug, handshake and it was like we had just seen each other the day before.

Kelly, pretty damn cool person, thanks a bunch for making the effort to pop over and spread some hugs, we WILL do a shoot together if you like it or not!

Trent, another member of the geek brotherhood, if its not at your house stealing bandwidth its at my house drinking or about to go drinking, between the bandwidth, designated driving, and buying me and antique Macintosh computer for my birthday, your awesome

John, no matter whats goin on around you theres a sense of happyness, fun and awesomeness, keep up the good vibes and we will have plenty of BBQ's and Bud's in the future

To both my blood, and inherited families, there is way to much love between the two of you, I now have two brothers, a sister, two mothers, two fathers and some extras aswell, (I dont know what title Tom and Maria have....step sibling? :-/ bah I dont know)

And my girlfriend and partner in crime, Loz, there really isnt enough I could say about you, if you want to base what I have to say about you just on this one night I think thats the easiest option to take, from all of your running around and helping with the party, to coming to our first business meeting with me, if you werent with me at the party you were still at the party being an awesome host, drinking and making sure everything was getting done, I love you more than anything in the world babe and I am so giddy and nervous with what is possible if we just put out minds together, from organising a business to organising a BBQ birthday party. Everything with you is so exciting.

Pretty much to sum it all up guys, the party was awesome, and humid. But there was alcohol, metal music, BBQ and lots of laughing and talking.

Thankyou to all who came and even those who didnt but atleast let me know they werent and why before hand, I deliberately invited a select group of people for a reason, there are no friends, or best briends or close friends, I count all of you as family and wouldnt have had it any other way, I may not have many friends, but I definately have one of the best families in the world. Families dont always have to be blood based.

Ryan.

Spent the whole day on the harbour with awesome friends and.... "decent music"
Hope to see everyone at my birthday party on Friday night for some beer and hotdogs and metal music! :-)